loneliness...

We often come across a thought that says, "loneliness is the best gift when we give ourself but the worst pain when given by others..." and its true...Why do we expect people to understand us when they themselves are in confusions..?? Why they keep on reminding us that we need someone..?? Why the people whom we love more than ourselves, leave us alone..?? Such questions enters our mind when we are alone...

We live in the world where there are billion people around us, some are special and some are worthless...still we jus cant live without them...I am a good listener and today after hearing the veiws from my friends, family and loved ones, I realised that my defination is completely different from theirs...For me, loneliness is not the part of life but it has conquered my life and that too, completely...When I cry, they say you are a baby...When I laugh un-necessarialy, they say you are im-mature...When I am still like a statue, they say you are heart-less...They keep on judging me without knowing that they are indirectly hurting me...

When we talk to ourself, we often wonder,"am I thinking about the right thing..." we cry, we smile, we curse, we bless, we dance, we curl, we do loads but still we are alone but do we like to be alone..?? hmmm...confused, aren't I..?? lol...but this is the way life works...when we are in the middle of the deepest and greatest confusions, we find the best solutions...but again the question arises, should I or should I not...

so what we should do..?? forget worries and enjoy as if its the last moment of your life...be happy, feel the smile your wearing, touch the colours and give treat to your eyes...walk bare feet and feel the each cell in your body getting active...take time to fall in love with yourself...we should be living for ourself too...just start and end your days by saying to yourself the three most beautiful words of the universe " I LOVE YOU... "

...Chinky Sanghvi

I Miss You...

Sitting near the window, gazing at the sky...
Re collecting those moments...
When the first time you said, "Hi"...

Where are you..??why you're behaving like a stranger...
You were my best friend, my Angel...
M missing you..!!don't you realize it..??
My heart aches with every beat...

I know one day,you'll call me and say,
"girl I miss you"...
But I aways remember that day when you had said,
"Good bye"...

No demands and no compaints, is what I had promised you...
But my tears and lonely hours, are due on you...

Please come back, please do...
Because I miss you...

[:'(] [:'(]

...Chinky Sanghvi

Ek Anjaana Safar...

Yeh zindagi ka jo safar hai...
Sab kehthe hai,bada haseen hai...
Phir kyun akela mehsoos karte hai...
Aur akele is safar par chal padte hai...

Chal toh pade is safar pe akele...
Aaj kami hai kisike saath ka...
Par woh saath bhi kya jo kuch kadmo ka ho...
Aaj ho par phir kal na ho...

Sabke kwaishye ko rakha palko par...
Har rishte ko rakha sar aakhon par...
Phir woh samajh na sake humara pyar...
Ikraar ko samajh liya inkaar...

Aaj dil ne kaha,
Khol apne pankh aur udd ja...
Woh sab hasenge jab tu chala jayega...
Na mehsoos karenge teri kami na dundenge teri parchai...
Chala ja jahaan tera dil hai aur hai teri manzil...

Aaj iss aakhon ne kaha,
Jo sapne tute woh chubhte hai mujhe...
Jise tune apna mana woh rulata hai mujhe...
Nafrat na kar par pyar kyun hai tujhe unse...
Chali ja uss jage jahan koi dundh na paye tujhe...

Na jaanta hai dil na jaanti hai yeh aakhein...
Ki aasan nahi hai jeena akele...
Is anjaane rishte main kaun hai apna...
Le jaye mujhe uss anjaani jagah...

Pyar se coso dur hun...
Nafrat ki aag main jal gai hun...
Kya meri duri se kush rahenge mere apne..??
Toh bata khuda, kaha hai woh raaste...
Jo le chale mujhe ek alag hi duniya mein...

Aaj jo sapna dekha, woh zarur pura hoga...
Aaj manzil ne pukara hai, jaana toh hoga...

[:'(]
..Chinky Sanghvi

The Fairy Tale...

Often I am surrounded by the people who asks me...
Who is ur prince charming..??
I say, prince charming does not rule my mind...
But someone who will come to me and say...
In the most simplest way...
" Girl, your mine..only mine..!! "

Love is not the expensive celebrations in the most exotic hotels...
But eating teekha pani - puri at the ordinary stalls...

Love is not having the most rare, sweet wine in delicate glasses...
But having the cutting chai in cold winters or in rainy seasons...

Love is not visiting the best romantic places in the world...
Like London, Venice or Paris...
But its sitting near the sea with ur life...
And witnessing the most beautiful sunrise...

Love is not giving the boxes of delicate and "limited stock" gifts...
But its shown through a cute teddy and some beautiful roses...

Love doesn't mean having the first dine...
With the best decore and wearing designer clothes...
But dancing on the tunes of the hearts...
With the candle on the table till the wee hours of dawn...

Love is not decorating your third finger with the solitarie...
But holding ur sweetheart's fingers and getting lost in his eyes...
where you can see the real solitaries...

We often forget the difference between true love and fake ones...
But when I sit alone I feel, am I thinkin about the real one...??

What is love..?? Have no answer to the world's simplest question...
But my mind is curious to know...
The heart and love's true connection...

Blessed are those who know what they want...
Hope someday i meet him and say...
" look guys...he is that special one.."

...Chinky Sanghvi

Once...

Once not always means "once in a lifetime"...
There are some thoughts that comes once in our mind...
And sometimes it makes us cry and sometimes, makes us smile...

Because -
Once we fall in love...
Once we try to hate that love...

Once we decide to leave him forever...
Once we decide to live with him forever...

Once we hope, to have the best days with him...
Once we hope, never to face a single day with him...

Once we think, he is my soul-mate...
Once we feel, is he really going to be my soul-mate..??

Once we fight with him for wrong reason...
Once we say sorry and hug him tightly, for the same reason...

Once we feel, "i can do anything for his smile..."
Once we feel, "you idiot, why you always smile..?? " [lol..]

Once we tell him, "please never leave me.."
And he understands why...
Once we tell him, "you fool, get lost..!! " and he wonders why...

Once...only once...we feel...
All wrong things happens because of him...
But, the next moment...we feel incomplete without him...

Life has many questions...only some can be answered by us...
But life even has some questions...
Which can be answered only by that special one...

This journey which is a roller-coaster ride...
Sitting on the first seat alone, is not the right choice...
We always need someone to sit by our side...
To have the fun and make some noise...

Once some beautiful moments crosses our road...
Which completes our journey and some completes our soul...

...Chinky Sanghvi

The Mixed Feeling...

Scared to fall in love with someone...
But I am equally scared to loose that precious one...
This is the mixed feeling I have about him...
Should I tell him or live witout him...

He is not my life...
Because he taught me how to live without him...
He is not my heart...
Because my heart is stil alive without him...
But I feel the pain...
In every breathe I take...
I love him...
And that's my mistake...
Why do I have this mixed feelings about him..??
Should I tell him, or let him walk away...

He is neither my frnd nor the foe...
I love him a lot, that's all I know...
Whenever I am wit him, I forget the world around me...
But when he leaves, I miss him...
Why for him my heart cries...
Because he gives a damn to it...
I know he is not mine...
Then why did I meet him...
This is the mixed feelings I have for him...
Should I tell him, or say goodbye forever...

Today when my heart asks, for whom am I beating..??
My eyes asks, for whom am I crying..??
When he doesnt even care about you...
Why the hell you run behind him..??
This mixed feelings is making me a useless creature...
Should I tell him or act as a known stranger...

This mixed feelings makes me blind...
Don't know what to say and what to hide...
My heart and brain are not walking on the same road...
Confused and diffused is what I am right now... [:(]
Why this mixed feelings are taking the toll on me..??
Should I tell him or wipe the tear with the smile...

His name in my prayer will always be...
But whether I'l be in his life or not ,thats the mystery...
[:'(] [:'(]

...Chinky Sanghvi

The Lost...

Was living with the fear...
That I don't loose someone, who is my dear...
It was a nightmare that made me scared...
But when I opened my eyes,it had became d real fact...

Someone who was my best friend...
For whom I was still the darling princess...
Love was the only thing he showered me with...
And my happiness was his priority...

Those feet, where the heaven lies...
Those arms, where my world resides...
That smile which makes my day bright...
Those eyes which had the innocence of a child...

I miss your every gesture...
And I'll miss it, forever...

Today I sit alone...
At the place where I had seen you last...
With the hope that somewhere from the thin air you'll appear...
And say, " sweetheart, look I am here..."

But I know this is my fantasy...
You will never come back to me...
Why did you betray me..?? Is my question to you...
You'll have to answer this, I don't know how you'll do...

Feel like this is a dream and not the reality...
Because you know without you I can't live...
I cry profusely with the hope that it opens my eyes...
And see you back to life, back in my life...

Your absence is the biggest lost to me...
Come back soon, is my only plead...

:'( :'(
...Chinky Sanghvi

Is This Love...??

Entered into the age...
Where people find their soulmate...
When I see two beautiful love birds...
I asked myself, what is love...??

Some says, the bell rings in the heart...
While other says, they gives you the feeling of completion...
Friends says, they makes us feel special...
Mum says, it is something natural...
But I still wonder...
What is love...??

When their touch,erases our pain...
Their smile makes us insane...
Their presence is only thing we need...
Spending more time with them,is our greed...
But I still wonder...
Is this love...??

Those...
Words of comfort...
Tight hugs...
Beautiful conversations...
Love letters...
Long walks...
Silent talks...
Dancing in rain...
Smiling in pain...
Sweet arguements...
Flowers dat speaks thousand words...
And I still wonder...
Is this love...??

When he understands our unspoken words...
Wipes our falling tears...
Always there whenever we need them...
Holds you tight when we are in fear...
Looking at him I wonder...
Is this love...??

Their presence blooms the beautiful flowers in our heart...
Their smile illuminate lights in our eyes...
Suddenly the worst day becomes the most beautiful day in our life...
And it forces me to wonder...
Is it love...??

Then I feel its not love, its an infatuation...
That at this age, tends to happen...
Love is something which is priceless...
No language in dis world can express...

...Chinky Sanghvi

Questions...

Why do we care for the people who hate us...
Why do we need to give our loved ones, the explanations...
Why do we get hate in return of love...
Why do we feel alone in this crowded world...

Why do we loose people who are our lives...
Why some makes us feel nothing...
Why there's no one to say,girl your mine...
Why we run behind things worth nothing...

Why we feel alone in a crowd...
Cant hear the inner voice because the outside music is so loud...
We forget to live for the people we love...
And they forget to love,thus we are alone...

Dont know how to feel,dont know what to write...
Trying to read the pics that are flying in front of the eyes...
So much to acheive,so less is the time...
But do I know what is to be acheived and why less is the time...??

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME, how do I get out of this mess...
Feel like I am a big bin of thrash...
Living like a princess in the golden cage...
Want to get out,but it has no way...

Questions are thousands, but none has the answers...
BLOODY HELL...!! WHY MY LIFE IS SO JUMBLED...??
I am useless and a complete loser...
Want to say something, but I am feeling so mumbled...

I hope to be happiest someday...
Waiting desperately for that beautiful phase...

...Chinky Sanghvi

A New Start...

Was wandering lonely as a cloud...
But saw something that made me smile...
Dont know whether its a ray of light...
Or the shining star in the dark night...
But it changed my day, it changed my life...

Was feeling lonely in this crowded world...
Had no one to listen and no one to talk...
But there was someone, waiting in that corner...
To fill the gaps between my fingers...

He held my hand and walked with me...
Wispered, there's a life waiting for me...
Dont be afraid, dont be scared...
Because with you, am always there...

So i decided to have a new start...
With no tears and no regrets...
As i'l cherish my dreams and fullfill my desires...
With the one who held my fingers...

Life is beautiful, enjoy it to the fullest...
As it comes once,so have no regrets...
The doors which are closed, r not always locked...
Because after a dark night,there's a beautiful dawn...

Love you for making me realise...
That i too have a life :)

...Chinky Sanghvi